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Be Leaning into a New Season

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When you find change happening all around you,

Lean in.

When you create change in your life,

Lean in.

When you find yourself grieving a great loss,

Lean in.

Lean in to those who love, support and encourage you.

We don’t need to get crazy busy, decide to renovate our homes and put our heads down in futility,

Lean in.

We don’t need to create a “to-do” list that even Martha Stewart and her team couldn’t conquer,

Lean in.

We don’t need to stuff our faces, fill our throats with alcohol or mutter words of negativity to everyone we see.

Lean in.

Lean in to those habits that lift you up, bring you energy, and help you adapt.

Lean in to the five people that will help you.

Exercise.

Read.

Meditate.

Pray.

Laugh.

Cry.

Run.

Sit.

Be.

You.

Leaning in.

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Lean in to a new season.

Allow the leaves to change.

The acorns to fall.

The bulbs to be planted and enjoyed during a new season to come.

Whether we want it or not, seasons will change.

Choose to lean in.

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Be a Tour Guide not a Travel Agent

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I have a daily choice to make on how I want to live my life.

My life.

Impacting others.

My choice.

On how others impact me.

I have made the decision that I am going to live the rest of my days as a TOUR GUIDE.

I will be a leader.

I will speak clearly and kindly.

I will explore new places with excitement.

I will be show love and forgiveness to those on this journey with me.

I will try all sorts of new food.

I will jump into new activities.

I will not sit in my desk as a travel agent, but I will lead the tour!

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Today, I unveil my new website www.beenough.me.

I will be your tour guide on this journey into being “enough”!

Here I am with my boys:

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I am taking 100% responsibility for MY LIFE.

I am going to neither blame nor complain.

I will continue to LOVE deeply those placed around me.

I will listen.

I will ask.

I will be overflowing with gratitude that my basic needs of food, clothing and housing are completely met.

I am going to live my dream and create a clear vision for my family.

I will allow my path to wander.

I will believe.

I will know that what others think of me is none of my business.

I will set goals and create small daily tasks for myself.

I will look for others who have done what I am going to do.

I will link arms with those who inspire, encourage and love me as I am.

I AM releasing the BRAKES.

Here we go….

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Be Finding Freedom in your Fridge

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Food used to take up a plethora of mental space.

My mind felt like a ferris wheel running around and around about food.

What should I eat?

When?

How much?

Did I eat too much?

Now, I feel completely free.

I have found food that brings me freedom.

Complete meals including protein, carbohydrates, fats, and minerals.

I have returned after two weeks of renting out our home to vacationers.

The house was empty except for our furniture, every cupboard, dresser, even the refrigerator were empty.

I have not rushed to the grocery store to stock my fridge full so that I don’t feel empty inside because I AM FULL!

My mind is free to think of other things other than food.

My mind lives in abundance, it dreams and it knows that I will eat exactly what I need each day.

I know that my boys have enough food.

I have found freedom in my fridge!

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After two days, we are going to add a few things to the refrigerator, but just enough.

Knowing we have enough

Living with enough.

Being enough.

(This post was inspired by my friend AM and her mom C!  It is great so share your fridge epiphanies with people.)

God, philosophy, psychology

Be Open to Feel and to the Endless Possibilities

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I have had my feelings hurt many times recently.

I wasn’t sure why.

I ponder these words.

Tonight, I had an aha moment when I realized I get hurt because I am open.

I allow people to tell me about myself.

I permit them to tell me things because it is easier for them.

I have heard that if I lose more weight I will look old.

I have listened as people questioned what I eat.

I have allowed conversation about how I organize my calendar. (Yes, I have colours for each wee boy so that I can keep everyone’s schedule straight.)

I choose to continue to be open.

I choose to deeply feel.

I am no longer taking the easy road or trying to make people feel “comfortable” at the expense of my feelings.

I continue to allow and encourage people to talk about themselves.

I am learning strategies to stop people from talking about and judging me.

I realize that people are hurting deep inside and makes it hard for them to talk about themselves.

I realize that being an open person makes people uncomfortable.

I realize that my life of freedom living with endless possibilities is disconcerting for some.

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And yes, I am going to die my hair a strip of purple to show remind me of my ‘shield of faith’.  (with my stylist)

Being open.

No longer hurting.

Feeling.

All things are possible!

Glory.

Book, Goals, psychology

Be Putting Up Glass Walls

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Yesterday, my husband, Sexy Neck, spent Saturday banging two by fours together to create a wall in half of our unfinished basement.

The goal was to put up a wall to “cover up” our overflow food pantry, his tools and bench as well as some storage items.

He put up this incredibly beautiful, square wall, with vents to access the hot water tank, plus an extra large door.

Sexy Neck thinks of everything.

The wall is incredible and wonderfully made.

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The items behind the wall are a bit more haphazard and are in need of culling.

When you peek behind the door, you can see all the miscellaneous items that we are trying to hide.

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As I watched this wall begin to create a barrier yesterday, I had to ask myself:

What walls have you created in your mind and heart that you are hiding from?

What stuff are you not dealing with that are behind the wall?

And now today I am choosing to take action with these two questions.

I will deal with three unfinished relationships.

I will not hide.

I will reach out.

I will ask forgiveness.

I will be vulnerable.

Nothing hidden behind the steel walls in my mind.

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Walls now lovingly created with glass in my open mind for my own health and transparency.

Allowing freedom.

Allowing peace.

Allowing me to be….

Me.

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Be Signing Up Just Because Someone Asked 

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What would you do if you were asked something out of the blue? 

Would you consider it? 

  

I was asked to do a five kilometre run on Sunday.  

A run run. 

A kind of run that racers do.  

And I said ‘yes’! 

Just like that.  

Because I can.  

No hesitation. 

No fear.  

No worries about not being the fastest, or most ‘gazelle-like’.  

I said ‘yes’ because I can.  

Free.  

To do. 

To rest. 

To say yes or no.  

Freedom to be. 

Me.  

  

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Be My Grandma – 95 plus 6 days old

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I went to University to play volleyball, accidently received a degree and got to know my Grandma.

My grandpa was the best!  Not the best dad, according to my mom, but the best grandpa.  He always let us play in the barn on the farm, took us for sled rides in the snow and let us help him.  He was patient and funny, but not the easiest man to live with.

If my grandpa was the best, my grandma should be a saint. She was my grandpa’s later-in-life bride, but my Grandma Mary ended up being my closest living grandparent and my favourite.

When I went away to University, I moved to the town where my grandparents lived.  The town where they went to the horse races (my grandpa loved horses), the town where they spend almost every moment together and the town where they created a home for me to go to.   My grandma was my mirror because she was so good at reflecting back my feelings.  She had an inner knowing that couldn’t be explained.  She was selfless in her questions.  She was kind in her answers.   She was forgiving and gentle.  She was a beautiful singer. An awesome bingo player!  A beautiful person.

She gave me a potato pot for our wedding.  Every family needs a big potato pot to cook with for their growing family.

She never met my boys, but she saw lots of pictures.  She was always grateful for anything I did.

She was always excited to hear what they were doing.  She listened well.

She was the first person I talked on the phone to about my mom’s death and she really, really got it.  She knew my mom’s heart because her heart was the same.  The both sure loved curling!

And now my heart is broken again.

Shattered in pieces by loss.

Grandma Mary died six days after her ninety-fifth birthday.

Well-lived Grandma!

You lived an excellent life.

Grandma Mary… I love you more than you know.  Thank you for feeding me like a queen while I lived the University life.  Thank you for getting to know Steve and I and our boys.  Thank you for being a peaceful presence.  Thank you for welcoming me into your ways, your family and for living with my grandpa.  I always wish I could have done more, visited you more up north and just spent more time in your presence.   Love you Grandma!

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Missing the women in my life that were guiding lights, kind, thoughtful and now out of my reach, not a phone call away.

This is hard!

Humbling!

Life-changing!