Merry Christmas from here to there.
Whatever your internal or external season.
Whomever you are surrounded by or whether you are alone or lonely.
May you feel this Merry Christmas wish.
May my unfolding story bring you hope.
With joy and gratitude for what can happen in one year.
Finding freedom to live my life.
Pouring out my heart.
Being each moment.
Living in freedom this Christmas season.
Wishing each person that knows me or my words a very Merry Christmas.
Happy birthday Jesus!
Jesus, the giver of great gifts and the ultimate giver of freedom, grace and love.
Being present to what we are feeling and thinking takes awareness, especially during the holiday seasons.
It is easy to let time zip by in busyness, unaware of our body, mind and spirit. It is easy to get wrapped up in wrapping just doing without being.
Holidays are often wrapped up in a beautiful package of past memories and experiences that create our present life. In my book, I talk about my ‘be enough’ mindset and allowing myself space to care for my soul.
This year, I continue to unwrap past Christmas seasons, grieving the loss of my mom while being aware of my desire to create magical memories for my brood of boys.
I chose to be enough by strapping on my sticks! Heading off in the early morning on cross country skiis, solo. Allowing the thoughts float on by, in silence, in beauty with birds chirping me on as I pass by.
I chose to be enough by strapping on my boards. Heading off during the day on downhill skiis with my boys. Allowing laughter to pour out, looking for jumps, in beauty with my boys hooting and hollering as I go by.
Creating space to be.
Exactly where I am.
In body, mind and spirit.
Finding solace on my skiis.
Two slender boards sliding through the powder.
A Labrador retriever frolicking at the end of a leather leash.
A happy mama taking time to be still while gliding through the snow.
Be still and.
Be still and know.
Be still and know I.
Be still and know I am God.
Be still and know I am.
Be still and know I.
Be still and know.
Be still and.
Be still within.
Side note: I think this is one of the best parts of my early morning skiis, pajama-clad boys in the window.
May you have many beautiful smiles to come home to during this Christmas season.
As I have the privilege of living with and watching three wee boys grow I am conscious of big hairy audacious goals.
My five year old wants a jeep.
My eight year old would like a humongous Lego railroad.
Our youngest would just like everything that his older brothers want.
Each day these three beautiful boys share their dreams, large and small. They never worry about how it is all going to work out, but the goal is forefront in their mind and their smiles are humongous.
I have always wanted to write a book.
Somewhere in the last ten years, I have realized that I have forgotten about my big hair audacious goals. I had become caught up in the what and the how of daily life.
And now I am dreaming again and dreaming BIG. (Just take a look at yesterday’s post!)
I am living as a ten year old and recapturing what I used to love to do and how my mind loves to wander and wonder.
The barriers that were placed in front of me as I grew are gone. The visions and dreams to create in my life are mine alone.
I AM FREE!
Free to dream.
Free to be me!
Free to write a book and publish it on Amazon.
Right before ‘I am Malala’ on the list. Woah! I am humbled!
A family where we can choose to spend most of our time together.
A family where the children have equal time with both parents.
A family that can be full time living life together and part time at work.
My personal definition of a full time family.
A place where we choose our schedule and money is of no consequence. (What is money anyways, but a concept of trading money for time.) We are working very hard, every day to create residual, freedom income. Sexy Neck is working with a contractor to create a rental home on our property. I have launched a book into the world and I love coaching people using nutritional systems I love. The company gives me rebates for supporting and loving people to reach their individual energy, performance, weight loss, healthy aging or even financial goals.
My dreams continue to become reality as Sexy Neck and I walked our boys to school together today. As he is an educator with similar hours, I can count on two hands how many times he has been able to walk with us to school in the last four years.
I will hold to my full time family vision, not knowing ‘how’ it is going to unfold. My mom’s death taught me that sometimes we can’t just figure things out, we must walk them out.
With gratitude for each day.
With moments like this.
As a full time family.
I ain’t small.
I can use a gym voice.
I have spent a plethora of time in gymnasiums and ice rinks.
I love chatting to strangers and hearing others stories.
I have filled a whole bunch of air with my words.
Through the inspiring women currently surrounding me, I am realizing that solitude and silence fills the air with more.
My words matter when there are less of them, leaving space for others.
My being matters when there is less of me “out there”.
Solitude is my sanctuary.
Silence is my place to be.
Seeking solice in space within.
Re-reading books for a second time, which is unheard of for me.
Pondering Henri J.M Nouwen’s words on silence:
“Silence makes us pilgrims.
Silence guards the fire within.
Silence teaches us to speak.
Silence is the mystery of the future world.”
Be seeking solitude.
With gratitude for showing me the beauty and safety of silence: Annette and Miriam. (You can find Miriam at: http://www.miriamdesjardins.com)
Last weekend, as I laid my hand upon my son’s forehead, as I do every night before bed to bless him, he said mom, “You feel light!”.
He was right!
I was light!
We were spending the first night away in a ski condo that we had rented for the season. We are privileged to be sharing this condo with friends whom we alternate weeks with.
Nine months previous, I had decided that we were going to find a way to rent a condo up at the ski hill. I didn’t know how it was going to happen, but shortly afterwards someone found us and asked us if we wanted to share.
It was affordable.
At the bottom of a ski run and chairlift.
A dream came true!
I am holding lightly to the daily rhythm of life.
I hold tightly to my vision for my family. The freedom that I want to create where time and money are of no consequence. I want to have a full-time family.
My son is so perceptive and right.
I feel light in this place.
Light that comes from a goal being achieved.
Light that comes from being with my boys in a beautiful place.
Light that comes from just being me and allowing things to unfold.
Full of wonder.
Allowing my heart and mind to dream.