I have had my feelings hurt many times recently.
I wasn’t sure why.
I ponder these words.
Tonight, I had an aha moment when I realized I get hurt because I am open.
I allow people to tell me about myself.
I permit them to tell me things because it is easier for them.
I have heard that if I lose more weight I will look old.
I have listened as people questioned what I eat.
I have allowed conversation about how I organize my calendar. (Yes, I have colours for each wee boy so that I can keep everyone’s schedule straight.)
I choose to continue to be open.
I choose to deeply feel.
I am no longer taking the easy road or trying to make people feel “comfortable” at the expense of my feelings.
I continue to allow and encourage people to talk about themselves.
I am learning strategies to stop people from talking about and judging me.
I realize that people are hurting deep inside and makes it hard for them to talk about themselves.
I realize that being an open person makes people uncomfortable.
I realize that my life of freedom living with endless possibilities is disconcerting for some.
And yes, I am going to die my hair a strip of purple to show remind me of my ‘shield of faith’. (with my stylist)
No longer hurting.
All things are possible!