My heart is holey today.
I wish I could say it is holy.
The death of my mom is feeling large today.
Tears sit at the edge of my eyes.
My heart hurts.
I want to speak to my mom.
I have so many unanswered questions.
I feel an incredible sadness of her not ‘being’ in my everyday life.
It’s a deep purple heartfelt loss.
I choose, today, to slip on Mom’s soft purple Keen’s. (Mom always bought the best shoes and how fortunate am I that the shoes fit!)
One step at a time I tenderly walk through my day…
A friend and her daughter excitedly point at my shoes.
She exclaims, “We have the same shoes! Let’s all wear them tomorrow!” Here they are in their beautiful purple shoes:
Tomorrow, I won’t be wearing my purple Keen’s alone.
My heart aches a little less.
The hole in my heart feels smaller.
I sense God’s holy presence through the coincidence of purple shoes.
Friday morning add-on:
Look what my A friend wore to school drop-off/work today:
Thank you A, M and Sweet C!!