My heart is holey today.
I wish I could say it is holy.
The death of my mom is feeling large today.
Tears sit at the edge of my eyes.
My heart hurts.
I want to speak to my mom.
I have so many unanswered questions.
I feel an incredible sadness of her not ‘being’ in my everyday life.
It’s a deep purple heartfelt loss.
I choose, today, to slip on Mom’s soft purple Keen’s. (Mom always bought the best shoes and how fortunate am I that the shoes fit!)
One step at a time I tenderly walk through my day…
until…
A friend and her daughter excitedly point at my shoes.
She exclaims, “We have the same shoes! Let’s all wear them tomorrow!” Here they are in their beautiful purple shoes:
Tomorrow, I won’t be wearing my purple Keen’s alone.
My heart aches a little less.
The hole in my heart feels smaller.
I sense God’s holy presence through the coincidence of purple shoes.
Friday morning add-on:
Look what my A friend wore to school drop-off/work today:
Pure awesomeness.
Friendship.
Solidarity.
In grief.
Thank you A, M and Sweet C!!
This is really lovely. I have a Jacket of my fathers that I slip in every now and then. It makes me feel closer to him x
Beautiful. Ahhhh, a jacket would be lovely to slip on with memories and feelings surrounding you.
Thanks for sharing.
This is a incredibly beautiful picture imaging you with your strong, kind father’s jacket on. Thank you for sharing.
Very sweet and I know how you feel. I pray for comfort for you. Thanks for sharing it.
Lovely post. I’ll bet your mom is dancing in the best shoes ever now!
Lovely comment as well. I hasn’t visualized my mom dancing in heaven with her favourite shoes on, but this is an image I will now treasure. Thank you!