CC was in his element on the weekend. Lego everywhere and a truck to help him pick it up. Plus a teeny tiny shirt! Awesome!!
That drive between the new city and our old town is truly spectacular.
i can see deep blue green lakes and mountains near and far.
the purple sky, blue skies, the red skies, orange skies.
the orchards, the trees, the snow on the mountaintops.
BUT my soul is filled with anguish as I leave my mom, as I drive back to my ‘new’ life.
BUT my heart is with my mama, my mama in pain, my mama lying, my mama sick and unable to live her life.
My mama My mama My mama.
Life is such a dichotomy – beauty is all around me in all of God’s creation. I am amazed by the nature that I see surrounding me as I drive.
BUT my heart aches, my heart is broken, tears fall, big huge crocodile tears fall down my cheeks
BUT I pray and I hope and I sit in my pain in the presence of God’s beautiful creation amidst the pain.
Mom was in so much pain today that she couldn’t be touched. All she could handle was a quick kiss on the cheek by the boys. I gave her a kiss on the forehead and it was like I could feel the pain emanating from your body.