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Be Pruned (and Mom update!)
Last week, I was watching my boys play on their scooters and bikes when I saw this beautiful Daylily that had grown back beautiful, green leaves since I had pruned it in September. This will give you a hint of the abnormally warm weather we had in October.
On that day, this little plant taught me a very valuable lesson, something I have been pondering for over fifteen years.

In the bible, the book of John tells us that Jesus says, God is the gardener, he is the vine and we are the branches. Jesus goes on further to say that he prunes us so that we will be even more fruitful.
I’ve never really understood this beautiful picture. I’ve always thought if God is God why does he need to prune us?
Back to my Daylilly in front of our house. As I walked up to it I started having a conversation in my head.
I’m sorry little Daylily. You are incredibly beautiful and wonderfully green, but I’m going to have to prune you. I know that the winter is coming soon and you are going to die unless I prune you. I need to cut back your leaves so that in the spring we can enjoy your beautiful flowers.
After these thoughts went through my head, I wanted to get down and lie on the sidewalk. I have been known to do that before with my prayer walking buddies.
I feel that I am in a season of pruning and sometimes it hurts. It is hard to see those beautiful green, lush plant leaves fall away. For me those green leaves would be: expectations, needing to ‘know’, some relationships, wanting to help. None of these things are bad, but I see that to move forward I need to let these things fall to the ground.
Now I sit, with my people, and I notice.
I try to be gentle with my newly pruned self.
My pruning is neither good nor bad.
It just is.
I allow those beautiful plants around me to give me encouragement.

Those plants that are amazing at weathering the winter storms.
My counselor, my old Clark Crescent friends, my mommy friends, my prayer warriors, sexy neck and God.
In Him alone I put my trust.
I looked to His creation, His word and His ways to continue to teach me, and to allow me to weather this storm. How do you weather storms when they come?
Mom Update
Mom is one tough cookie! This process is not for wimps. Mom has had excruciating back pain all week due to her surgery two weeks ago. This morning we met with the oncologist to talk about her chemotherapy that she should start next week. This will be chemotherapy number four! Mom is very weak and still having difficulty eating. She also continues to lose weight. The doctor would like her to be stronger before she does her next chemotherapy. This should probably be the last week of November. Mom is greatly encouraged by her grandkids, a friend, Donna, who came for a visit this week as well as by my dad’s presence and my sister flying in tonight. God has us all in the palm of his hands. May you sleep well tonight mama. I love you so very much.
Be Driving Home After Surgery
I have been singing this song all morning. Country Roads. This is the version by Olivia Newton-John, not John Denver.
Mom and dad are driving home in the sunshine today. They should be back at home before dinner. I am extremely grateful.
M was a star down in VCity holding the fort at the hotel, taking meals to the hotel, going swimming with dad and being a great support for mom and dad. Her hubby,C, again held down the fort at home to free M up and even endured the two hour pre-op appointment last Tuesday. What a team!
Nana and papa just dropped in on they way. Yeah!!
Be Let Loose From the Hospital
Mom was discharged from the hospital this morning. She checked off all the boxes on the list:
– no more oxygen
– oral pain medication
– pee
– poo
– walking around
– eating
How are you doing with these today?
I am realizing on my own healing journey that I need my mind to check in with my body. I have one strong, stubborn, determined mind!
Mom is safely tucked into her hotel room for the next few days. They hope to make the four hundred and forty kilometre trek home on Monday.
Rest well mom! Heal well. May God continue to hold you in the palm of His hand.
Be giving a hospital update
Hi all!
Here’s mom’s room with a view:
She had a great morning!
She’s now off of her catheter, taking oral pain medications rather than intravenous and she enjoyed the morning watching curling and talking about shoes with M.
The surgery went very very well. There were no surprises and the doctors are excited to see what the chemotherapy can do.
We are filled to overflowing with gratitude. We have felt the love and peace of everyone who has sent messages and emails.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Be Going In for Surgery
Mom goes to VGH tomorrow (Halloween Day) at 5:45am. She is scheduled for surgery with Dr. Lee at around 7:00am.
They are taking all the cancer and a few organs as well.
The surgeon has said she will be in the hospital for two nights.
My prayer for my beautiful mama:
Mom, may you feel peace as you walk into one of your least favourite places.
May you feel God guiding you with kindness and love through Dad and M your side.
May you sense our love and prayers from ALL of us far away.
May the doctors and nurses have smooth hands and sharp eyes.
May we all see a miracle through you, through this surgery and through the last three chemos.
Mom you are a wonder to me every day – your unconditional love, your kindness, your work ethic, your support for me and my boys.
I love you mom! Heal quickly and see you at home next week.
In Jesus’ mighty and healing name I pray all these things. Amen.
Be Living In Godly Isolation
I stand.
On my own.
I wait.
For someone to say something.
For someone to smile, to notice, to see this shattered human among them.
I stand.
In the unknown.
I wait.
For someone to tell me something.
For someone to tell me it will be okay, mom will be healed and I will have my best friend back.
I stand.
Not knowing.
I wait.
For someone to show me something.
For someone to show me why I am living here in isolation with my boys, away from my parents, from my support, from the place I am ‘known’.
I stand.
I understand.
I wait for no one.
No human can answer my questions.
No one can be enough, no one can help me comprehend or bring me moment-by-moment comfort.
I stand.
I am not alone.
I wait.
God is my strength.
My Someone.
My everlasting peace and joy.
My understanding.
My known.
He is more than enough in my isolation from family and friends.
Thank you Jesus.
Be Turning a Corner
Mom has officially turned a corner. No more pain/nausea. She is getting out and about. She came for a short visit today. She is eating and drinking. It truly is the little things in life! October 31st is mom’s surgery date.
Oh ya, I also have something to share. When you ‘turn the corner’ into our dining room/kitchen, look at this great hat rack we put up from Ikea:
I love this simple rack! It holds all the boys knapsacks. There are cubbies for them to put their home reading/crafts in. We have even been using the top to keep our precious Lego creations safe.
I just love turning a corner!
Sidenote:
I am not sure if anyone feels schizophrenic about this post or not, but it definitely shed some light for me. I was writing about my mom turning a corner which led me to thinking about our new rack around the corner.
Every day, I live in the reality of my mom’s journey through cancer. Every day I struggle to ‘feel’ anything but sadness and loss. It is the little things like this silly backpack rack that keep my chin up and my feet moving forward.
Everything else (mom’s cancer, this move, some relationships, new neighbours) I can’t put into an “organized box”!
Thank God for God. I’m holding tightly my Lord!







