As I lay my head down on the pillow, I ponder relationships, as I often do. My peeps. My random people. All humans who crossed my path today.
I shower gratitude over the people in my everyday life: our neighbours, our friends, our teachers, our coaches, our secretaries, our service industry works.
I feel sadness and wonder what I could do with those ‘lost’ relationships. I wonder about what I could have done differently and I often come to the conclusion of: NOTHING.
As I lay my head down on the pillow, I realize that some people would rather be right than be in relationship. It is truly their way or the highway. They actually like to be “highway patrollers” telling others how to drive on the highway of life. For me, my patrollers, are no longer in relationship with me because I didn’t do what they wanted me to do. I don’t want to drive my vehicle in their style. They are right and I am wrong. And I am totally okay with that!
I may be wrong but I walk in freedom. Complete and utter freedom. As a recovering perfectionist, I am no longer afraid of wrong. I am no longer afraid to fail. I am failing faster than ever before as I learn about fueling my body and moving out of my comfort zones. (Because we all know that this is where the magic happens!) I believe our greatest learning happens when we pick ourselves up after we fall down. I am no longer afraid of others judgements or insight in my wrongs. I am too busy growing myself. I honestly don’t have time or energy to judge what others are doing. Plus, I value relationships over being right.
I love my peeps, where we can talk honestly and opening about where we are at. Our lives aren’t all glossy like a magazine cover, it is like a gorgeous diamond bracelet with the shine and shadows. No one is striving to be right nor wrong but to be in relationship.
In relationship! 💛
(This post is written in celebration of a group of women who met this morning to share the life and death of their beautiful mamas! #griefgirls)
We already have Taco Tuesdays and Pizza Pie Day Fridays, so we decided to add a new meal party to the menu: French Toast Fridays.
As we structure to create a new “life” in the big city, we are finding challenges in not only the September start-up, an almost completed renovation, new neighbours and mom’s cancer, but also in the schedule of our new school.
They start school at 8:25, go out and play at 11:15, then eat lunch at 11:42 and then have recess at 1:45 before dismissal at 2:30. Last year, the kids had recess in the morning followed by a significant amount of snack time.
Anyways the gist of all these times thrown at you is that the kids only get a small eating break in the morning. Jackson is very hungry until lunchtime.
Today, we added French Toast Fridays to bulk up our usual porridge breakfast with some high protein eggs. Success!
But now I need a few more ideas for Monday thru Thursday. Anyone?
Gotta love the pure maple syrup!
This is our current go-to recipe for bedtime snack. Thanks Diana for posting it on your blog. Here is the original post. She calls it Gnome Granola.
I rewrote the recipe below.
4 cups oats
1/2 cup sesame seeds
1/2 cup sunflower seeds
1 cup coconut
1 tsp salt
2 tsp cinnamon
1 cup walnuts
Put all the dry ingredients in a big bowl.
1/2 cup oil
1/2 cup honey
And when warm add
1/2 tsp vanilla
Then immediately stir into the dry ingredients. Put on a tray. Bake at 350 for 20 mins. Stir halfway.
I put the dry ingredients in the bowl the night before. I also didn’t put in the coconut this time. Also I prefer pecans and will sometimes substitute them for the walnuts. I also add chia seeds or wheat germ sometime instead of the sesame seeds.
My foodie friend Diana has helped me become freer in changing the recipes.
This is definitely a recipe to play with and make it your own.
One of our baby boys, OC, loves to eat! I mean he LOVES to eat. If we don’t have food on his tray when he is eating, he starts to squawk and scream.
He is the youngest, but we are predicting that he will be the biggest. He eats more than his brothers! Does this perhaps explain his 102 percentile head circumference?
Here is his latest meal for breakfast:
1 whole piece of spelt toast with PB and Nana’s jam
1 piece of bacon
Note: Notice his oldest’s brother’s breakfast in the background.