As a mom, there is always, always something “to do”. I decided a long time ago that I didn’t want to be a human “doing”, but a human being. Now I set goals for myself. I just write it on the calendar and go for it. Anything that I don’t get done, just carries over to the next month.
As a family, we also set 5 year goals and one year goals, usually in January. We realize that time can just slip by. Man mantra these days with a 5, 3 and 1 year old is “The days are sometimes long, but the years are short!”
For example, we know that in 2013, we have to redo our roof as well we want to go and visit special friends in San Francisco and Williams Lake. We have also started saving to take our whole family to Europe in 4 years. If we don’t plan for it, we probably won’t do it! It helps me to be organized!
I am going to be okay. I am going to be okay. No matter what the MIR says or when I get it done, I am going to be okay!
OK! I better catch you up to speed. Since September 2009, I have been experiencing tingling, numbness in my left leg, left arm, right chin, cheek and eye and now the left side of my abdomin. I saw a neurologist today. He wants to rule out Multiple Sclerosis. He wants to do a MIR. If I go with the public system, I will wait one YEAR. If we spend $1800 and go with the private system, I will wait one WEEK. Hmmmm…
But no matter what we chose to do, I know that I will BE OK! Maybe a little pissed at the beginning because I know that strain it will put on my family…
BUT, we went for the private MRI and I am ‘okay’. I still experience numbness and tingling, but apparently I can ‘be enough’!
Sometimes I want it to be all about me! Me! Me! Me! Me!
Most days, I realize that as the President of the family (more on this later), I need to look at my family and do a few things for them, like cook, do laundry, make sure the dogs are fed and oh ya, the worms. I forget to introduce you to the worms in our basement that eat all our compost.
Anyways, my husband, let’s call him sexy neck, had the midnight to 3am shift with our poor little teething 11 month old. I knew that Sexy Neck wasn’t going to have alot of energy today. So, I arranged for the family to go down to the Beach/Park so that Sexy Neck could do a training swim for his triathlon. (I signed him up for the triathlon because for the last 10 years he has been talking about doing one, so I took the iniative and he has been loving it.) Poor teething CW, had a nap in the stroller and our 3 year old, JC, was able to play at the fabulous Purple Park Playground.
Now, I get to see old Sexy Neck in a wetsuit, doing something that he has always wanted to do and loving it!
Today, I decided to be a cheerleader and I think we all feel better for it. Well, except for little CW and his poor teeth.
Welcome to the inaugural post for “Be Enough” blog. I am a stay-at-home mom by choice and teacher by trade. As a reformed type “A”er, I know that I need to live each day and just “be enough” for my husband, my sons, our dogs, my family and friends.
I can’t be everything, but I can “be enough”.
Here is a game of peek-a-boo that I played with my 11 month old son CW today.
Just keep being enough JJ. You “cann” do it.