In the post-Christmas darkness of grief, I took time to sit with myself, alone to ponder and grieve. As I let go through this grieving process, I had one huge realization that has affected ever day for the last four months.
I realized for certain I could die at any moment.
I knew this fact about life, but watching my mom die helped me ‘know’.
Now, I am unafraid.
Death is a certainty.
I am free!
Through this new lense of “knowing” the inevitable, I am experiencing rich days.
Days where God’s coincidences are profound and His love is pouring out.
Moments where I can easily let go of relationships that are unhealthy or where people don’t accept me as being an imperfect person.
Choices where I choose health in what I consume and what I do.
Times where I make decisions and then work hard to see them come to fruition.
Today is one of these days!
Four months ago, I decided to do a triathlon. A 750 metre swim, followed by a 30 kilometre bike ride then rounded out by a 5 kilometre run. The funny thing is that I am not very good at any of them, but I figure throw them all together and this sounded like fun.
With my cheering section at the side of the race course, and the incredible racers surrounding me. I did it!
I tried a tri!
One step at a time.
Ann Voskamp once wrote, “Daily discipline brings freedom.”
Yes, it does.
Discipline to be who you are with the gifts God has given you.
Knowing the truth about life’s fragility.
Savouring every day.
What will you try?