⚡️I had always thought that if you worked hard enough, you will get where you want to go. Magically, everything would just all fall into place. Nope I am still living “in between”.
⚡️I had always thought there was a magic wand where “poof” healing would come after my mom had died and all would be well. But all isn’t well. I feel things incredible deeply when I find out a friend’s mom has cancer or a preschool friend has cancer or a surgeon treats a friend poorly, just like what happened to my mom. Sometime “in between” just sucks.
⚡️I had always thought that if I did ‘my work’, communicated kindly and directly that all would be well. I thought my relationships would flourish and we would all sing “kombiya” together. I have some relationships with my family of origin that I couldn’t even consider “in between”, they are non-existent.
⚡️I had always thought that if I reached certain goals in my life that all would be well. I envisioned that life would be more fun and that there would be an ease or flow to it. I have reached those goals, but I still sit “in between” as those goals have now changed.
✨ I am “doing less” throughout my days, but I have never experienced so many more incredible opportunities coming into my life. These “in between” places are BEAUTIFUL. I have more quiet times, more moments of “no coincidences” where I have to lie down and less ‘busyness’.
✨ My healing is a journey not a destination to be tackled. Actually, I don’t even know where my healing journey is going to take me next! Being “in between” the healing journey creates MIRACLES. It has deepened my relationships, helped me focus on what’s important and allowed me the privilege to see into the beautiful hearts of women like Heather, whom I met today.
✨ Relationships are like a game of baseball, each person needs to be willing to catch the ball. I have been playing a ton of catch with my “people’s” back to me. Imagine a baseball game looking like that? You can only apologize so much, talk so much, and try to get someone to play for so long. “In between” relationships are RAD because they mean I am REALLY free to be me.
✨ It is truly each moment that makes life sweet…moment after moment. Every day I love savouring the weather, the age of my boys, the laughter at myself when things go wrong, the watching as our dreams unfold. Step by step, one lunch box making, wrestling match breaking, toy taking and sheer joy making day at a time. “In between” is a SWEET place to be.
Life is powerful when we are awake to the processes “in between”
To the beauty and spaces that surrounds us every day.
To people’s eyes.
To people’s stories.
To the sheer grandeur of the non-coincidences that unfold before me.
The presence of God.
Moment by moment.
Knowing for sure that RIGHT NOW…
I am ENOUGH!
Living “in between”