Be Staying

Deep within myself a pain wells up.

My lungs ache from coughing.

But this is nothing compared to seeing my mom going south for surgery.

On Halloween, they will cut her open and remove the cancer.

I had a plan.

Many plans.

Haven’t you?

Tomorrow, I will do this and that.

The next day we will go south.

In the book of Isaiah 55 it says:
8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

I tried to find a way to go.

I wanted to figure it out.

My body had other plans.

I choose to stay and rest.

I stay.

I am devastated.

I support with prayer and love.

I allow my body to heal.

I trust.

I know God has us all in the palm of His hand.

I stay.

I watch mom and dad go with tears welling up.


Be Recounting the Past to Live in the Presence

October, 2012- Sexy Neck tears his Achilles & has surgery

November, 2012 – Move our family to a rented basement suite closer to Sexy Neck’s work

February, 2013 – Sell house (in a day!)

March, April, 2013 – Pack house and clean

May, 2013 – Move stuff into storage container and garage of new house.
Live with my parents while renovating new house

July, 2013 – Move into new house. Next day mom is diagnosed with cancer.

August, 2013 – Mom spends 17 days in hospital enduring acides (from cancer) bowel obstruction, dehydration and a blood clot in her lung. Oh ya, she also started chemo.

September, 2013 – Boys start new schools and new activities in new city.

October, 2013 – Pneumonia! Whew!







Crackly breath.




Nothing else I can do!